I had a title for today but now I can't remember it. Thinking about what I should write today a couple of thoughts crossed my mind. For instance "keep it short" or "go straight to the point". Time is really hard to find nowadays now so whatever time I find has to be put to good use. Today, for instance, I plan to go see a movie instead of going to class. It's only the first week of class anyway and there's no point going to sit in class if I didn't read the material ahead of time. To put it clearly - I'm lazy - always have, probably always be :)
I read parts of John 13 this morning. Jesus tells Judas to go do what he would do quickly. It's wierd somewhat considering that Jesus knew what it was Judas was planning to do. But as I thought about it it started to make a little more sense (cue false theology and impending doom). The reality is that there's a time for everything and when the time comes acting like a sluggard won't cut it. Get to it and do it. I think it was Paul that talks about leaving the sinning brother to his ways as that may be the best wasy to save him. And in the book of Revelation, the message to one of the churches is "you are neither hot or cold". Put another way "you are always vaccilating (I'll have to check the spelling/meaning of this word) - one time doing good and going half way and the other time basically retracing your steps". Conclusion - not hot, not cold, spat out. Compromise has it's time and it's place (where it's actually a proactive act of faith) like everything else but God's designed life in such a way that each one is accountable and for that reason God really wants each one of us to get on with it - live life. Take that step. I believe God would much rather we took the right step (as in no Judas style gestapo missions) but the precursor to that is taking a step. Apparently there may be something worse than doing it all wrong. It's just sitting still and letting fear tie you down.
I've written the last paragraph down for me really. Life short - get along with it. God really would have it no other way.
Friday 27 August 2010
when every thing falls apart
This week I'm posting twice. I wrote this last week and never got to post it.
Aug 20, 2010
This week has gone by in a blur. I can't say much has been achieved but I've started taking things slower in anticipation of next week. I like taking it slower. I wonder why I never thought about it before now. I think I'll continue taking it slow for the conceivable future - no point killing myself trying to get nowhere fast. The places that really matter in life are the places you won't have to hurry to get it - that's just the way it is.
So the new season resumed last weekend. It's funny to think that I once thought of making this blog an arsenal blog. I shrudder to think of the negativity that would be spewing on this page if that had indeed been the case. There're so few positives going into this season that I really pray we succeed. We need something of a miracle to win anything this season.
Talking of miracles, I've had my own fair share. It's now been almost a month that God has broken the chains. I read somewhere that an addict would always have the huge for the rest of his life. I don't know about that but I'm beginning to understand better the whole concept of God been strong in my weakness. And He is a merciful friend too. I'm grateful God.
Ah, so why the title you wonder. Well I could just be a party poop and say I just felt like typing it but that would be a lie. Over the course of the 4 weeks or so I've heard and appreciated Sheri Easter's rendition of this song. One of these days I'll hopefully put a link to a naija gospel song that I like.
I'm so thankful its friday - sabbath starting tonight. I'm grateful because I still have a job. There's a peace and security that comes from knowing that I'm not the one in charge - God is.
Aug 20, 2010
This week has gone by in a blur. I can't say much has been achieved but I've started taking things slower in anticipation of next week. I like taking it slower. I wonder why I never thought about it before now. I think I'll continue taking it slow for the conceivable future - no point killing myself trying to get nowhere fast. The places that really matter in life are the places you won't have to hurry to get it - that's just the way it is.
So the new season resumed last weekend. It's funny to think that I once thought of making this blog an arsenal blog. I shrudder to think of the negativity that would be spewing on this page if that had indeed been the case. There're so few positives going into this season that I really pray we succeed. We need something of a miracle to win anything this season.
Talking of miracles, I've had my own fair share. It's now been almost a month that God has broken the chains. I read somewhere that an addict would always have the huge for the rest of his life. I don't know about that but I'm beginning to understand better the whole concept of God been strong in my weakness. And He is a merciful friend too. I'm grateful God.
Ah, so why the title you wonder. Well I could just be a party poop and say I just felt like typing it but that would be a lie. Over the course of the 4 weeks or so I've heard and appreciated Sheri Easter's rendition of this song. One of these days I'll hopefully put a link to a naija gospel song that I like.
I'm so thankful its friday - sabbath starting tonight. I'm grateful because I still have a job. There's a peace and security that comes from knowing that I'm not the one in charge - God is.
Sunday 15 August 2010
scored shot with his head
Ever listened an American run the commentary for a football match? There's nothing ordinarily wrong with the commentary but it really can be painful hearing the man making a living. I don't know why I'm mentioning it now though. I guess this makes me not much different from espn's American football (soccer) commentators.
This week I learnt a painful lesson - closure is not the easiest thing to come by (I don't get why americans want it so bad either). By Sunday I was through with the site (from last week post) but it's still not hosted. Then the other language app I talked about too was finished as far as core functionality goes but that's not good enough for me closure wise. I didn't feel like getting up last Friday. But I had a light-bulb moment as I lay on my bed - it's not how you start its how you finish. I've got to finish these things. Seat down, see what I've done wrong and do what I've done right more.
Now school starts in 2 weeks. It actually feels like 4 months of torture is about to start. How else would you describe 11 credit hours plus 40 hour work weeks. I think I'll call a meeting the week before school starts @ home. The message would be simple - you are all on your own, its swim or sink time for all of us. If you need help tell me and I'll pray for you. Any more than that and you are asking for too much!
It's raining cats and dogs in ATL. I love it when it rains. You can walk in what would otherwise be a crowded street when it rains and you'd have the whole street to yourself. You should know better than driving in town when it rains though - humans lost that gene way before Ford's ford appeared on the scene. I used to, as a kid, enjoy listening to the rain pour down on the roof and watching the raindrops run down the window panes. I must have been a really lonely kid. I love smelling the water in the air just before the rain after a long summer break. I can't forget the smell of the grass immediately the rains - it's almost like you are smelling life.
It's amazing that the rains can wreak so much havoc, though. It's almost like there's been a flood every where on earth this summer (or rain season if you are from sub-Sahara). From Pakistan to Niger to the U.S. There's something obviously wrong. I think something is coming. No, I take that back, somethings going on - it's here already. It's just so easy to ignore the obvious because we've accepted it as normal. Isn't there some text in the bible about knowing winter is around when we see the leaves dropping? It's true a 2nd coming has been on the cards for like forever but so was the 1st coming. Something is happening, right before our eyes. I'm not sure where to place it but it behooves me to get my act together. You know, date that girl I always wanted to (talk about being vain), sing/write that song that's never going to make it to the Grammies, live that dream, serve God. The time is now!
This week I learnt a painful lesson - closure is not the easiest thing to come by (I don't get why americans want it so bad either). By Sunday I was through with the site (from last week post) but it's still not hosted. Then the other language app I talked about too was finished as far as core functionality goes but that's not good enough for me closure wise. I didn't feel like getting up last Friday. But I had a light-bulb moment as I lay on my bed - it's not how you start its how you finish. I've got to finish these things. Seat down, see what I've done wrong and do what I've done right more.
Now school starts in 2 weeks. It actually feels like 4 months of torture is about to start. How else would you describe 11 credit hours plus 40 hour work weeks. I think I'll call a meeting the week before school starts @ home. The message would be simple - you are all on your own, its swim or sink time for all of us. If you need help tell me and I'll pray for you. Any more than that and you are asking for too much!
It's raining cats and dogs in ATL. I love it when it rains. You can walk in what would otherwise be a crowded street when it rains and you'd have the whole street to yourself. You should know better than driving in town when it rains though - humans lost that gene way before Ford's ford appeared on the scene. I used to, as a kid, enjoy listening to the rain pour down on the roof and watching the raindrops run down the window panes. I must have been a really lonely kid. I love smelling the water in the air just before the rain after a long summer break. I can't forget the smell of the grass immediately the rains - it's almost like you are smelling life.
It's amazing that the rains can wreak so much havoc, though. It's almost like there's been a flood every where on earth this summer (or rain season if you are from sub-Sahara). From Pakistan to Niger to the U.S. There's something obviously wrong. I think something is coming. No, I take that back, somethings going on - it's here already. It's just so easy to ignore the obvious because we've accepted it as normal. Isn't there some text in the bible about knowing winter is around when we see the leaves dropping? It's true a 2nd coming has been on the cards for like forever but so was the 1st coming. Something is happening, right before our eyes. I'm not sure where to place it but it behooves me to get my act together. You know, date that girl I always wanted to (talk about being vain), sing/write that song that's never going to make it to the Grammies, live that dream, serve God. The time is now!
Friday 6 August 2010
so long heartbreak...
It's totally unfair that I don't have access to all that cool stuff on the Dr. Who site just because my ip address places me outside some particular geographical region. Is it not enough that the TV networks this part of the globe are usually a whole season behind? Do they have to rub it in by denying me my God given access to some 'free' content?
Life's unfair, blah blah blah. In any case, and turning to more important things, I've made up my mind to burn up some bridges - or cross some personal milestones. Here's a quick list:
That site I've been working on for the larger part of the last year has to be number one on the list. Ok, so I was learning scala and liftweb and jquery and ... (yeah that's about it), but that experiment has got to end. Time to move on - there's a new squeeze in town.
Another one is that game I've planned to write for so long. Well, it was good as dreams go but some dreams are meant to be just that - dreams! It was nice having you for a friend but ours really never was a symbiotic relationship.
Then there's the concept of debt. The very idea that I can get it now and pay for it later. Now this one's tricky. You see I own a mortgage. I don't get why people say this with pride - I own a house is understandable but I own a mortgage? In any case, I not only own a mortgage but I'm on the verge of taking up some student loans. Somethings got to give here. I don't subscribe to the some debt is good debt idea but my actions say the exact opposite. Doesn't it say in the good book that they shall not borrow but shall lend to nations. Doesn't it say the cattle on a thousand hills belong to him. It's not about becoming rich as much as its about been financially secure and independent in God. Borrowing belies that concept I think. Living paycheck to paycheck belies that concept too. Something's got to give way. I'm just not so sure what yet... Ok, I wont be getting that SD card I crave for my N900 anything soon. I'll have to remember to backup regularly. And that's not all but let's move along for now.
I'm tired of settling. Granted, I go through this phase once every 6 months or thereabout (my mum would probably say I go through it every other nite but thats not really important now). I would like to go ahead and draw up a list now of goals but I'm afraid I've become too good at that and forgotten the bit about implementation (its a naija thing I guess). There's salvation. "Change goin' come" one way or the other.
By the way, if you (don't think I don't know there are some of you out there) read last week's then let me calm your fears - all is well *wink* *wink*
I feel like I've not said anything really positive here today (note to self: make sure to not listen to Miles Davis all day at work on a friday again). I guess when you realize that you need to change something positive has already started. Like one of my favorite authors loved to say it's the Holy Spirit that prompts us, each, to recognize our sinfulness. And Christ gives life more abundantly. He says if you drink of the water He gives you'll never taste again - I'll never thirst again. Last sabbath, after sabbath school I just sat there and kept thinking why it's so hard to follow God when all I have to do is believe. That's when it hit that true believe requires surrender. I need more of your grace and spirit, God. I need to learn to surrender all.
Life's unfair, blah blah blah. In any case, and turning to more important things, I've made up my mind to burn up some bridges - or cross some personal milestones. Here's a quick list:
That site I've been working on for the larger part of the last year has to be number one on the list. Ok, so I was learning scala and liftweb and jquery and ... (yeah that's about it), but that experiment has got to end. Time to move on - there's a new squeeze in town.
Another one is that game I've planned to write for so long. Well, it was good as dreams go but some dreams are meant to be just that - dreams! It was nice having you for a friend but ours really never was a symbiotic relationship.
Then there's the concept of debt. The very idea that I can get it now and pay for it later. Now this one's tricky. You see I own a mortgage. I don't get why people say this with pride - I own a house is understandable but I own a mortgage? In any case, I not only own a mortgage but I'm on the verge of taking up some student loans. Somethings got to give here. I don't subscribe to the some debt is good debt idea but my actions say the exact opposite. Doesn't it say in the good book that they shall not borrow but shall lend to nations. Doesn't it say the cattle on a thousand hills belong to him. It's not about becoming rich as much as its about been financially secure and independent in God. Borrowing belies that concept I think. Living paycheck to paycheck belies that concept too. Something's got to give way. I'm just not so sure what yet... Ok, I wont be getting that SD card I crave for my N900 anything soon. I'll have to remember to backup regularly. And that's not all but let's move along for now.
I'm tired of settling. Granted, I go through this phase once every 6 months or thereabout (my mum would probably say I go through it every other nite but thats not really important now). I would like to go ahead and draw up a list now of goals but I'm afraid I've become too good at that and forgotten the bit about implementation (its a naija thing I guess). There's salvation. "Change goin' come" one way or the other.
By the way, if you (don't think I don't know there are some of you out there) read last week's then let me calm your fears - all is well *wink* *wink*
I feel like I've not said anything really positive here today (note to self: make sure to not listen to Miles Davis all day at work on a friday again). I guess when you realize that you need to change something positive has already started. Like one of my favorite authors loved to say it's the Holy Spirit that prompts us, each, to recognize our sinfulness. And Christ gives life more abundantly. He says if you drink of the water He gives you'll never taste again - I'll never thirst again. Last sabbath, after sabbath school I just sat there and kept thinking why it's so hard to follow God when all I have to do is believe. That's when it hit that true believe requires surrender. I need more of your grace and spirit, God. I need to learn to surrender all.
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