Productivity-wise it can be said that I've been in a rut. I've done little of worth this week. I'm not mad at me though... I like it like this.
but does He always...
So i finished reading deuteronomy earlier this week. I almost started getting emotional at the end too. I really like Moses - he's the model of what every christian should strife to be: tight with God. It reminds of SS last saturday. The facilitator says that Gos always answers prayers immediately. I've always had issues with this since I think (used to think) that sometimes he doesnt. So this other guy says when his wife falls ill and he prays that's all there is to it - no calling back home during the day to say "are you fine or other nonsense like that". So i started thinking.
- In the first place, God never said he wont answer (as long as we ask according to his will of course)... And his word is true!
- Sometimes the answer is NO... or WAIT. Best example of NO is God telling Paul that the scales had to stay on.
- Sometimes the answer not forth coming because our sins have hidden us from God i.e. the prayer never went past the roof (almost)
- Sometimes we dont hear the answer because its not the one we want. Alternatively, we already have the answer and we know it but we dont like it so we pray for him to change his mind (we'll talk some more about the impossible later)
The last point brings out an interesting view of faith - trust. Faith is trusting God's plan regardless of how I feel about it - and it really can feel like a terrible plan sometimes (ask a 90 year old Abraham). I need this type of faith o... God know.
It's memorial day weekend (did I mention that I love holidays) and I managed to get off work early today (cue much shock and disbelief)... as I don't have anything else to write I'll leave with you the chorus of the song that was playing as i left work this afternoon (Brent Jones)
(Kick off your shoes and relax your feet) He's the only one who can give you peace.
(Kick off your shoes and relax your feet) Forget about your troubles...
We're gonna have (goodtime)
Everything will be (alright)
He'll turn your midnight (sunshine)
Relax your mind (Lay your burdens down let me see ya smile) [x2]
Friday 28 May 2010
Friday 21 May 2010
Production ready...
If you had told me three months ago that I'd feel experience such euphoria over a project that I am working on I'd have laughed at you (what with reports of me promoting bad code). But today as i leave work I feel nothing but pride and happiness. I've had this feeling before but it's usually associated with me giving my all to something and watching it fail (for some reason I seem to like lost causes). You see, I have no regrets when I give something my all and it fails. Conversely I feel no joy when I coast to success... I guess its been drummed too hard into my head that a worker is only worthy of his wage. Moreover, I have given up way too much for this project so I guess some euphoria is only to be expected. Life goes on, though - the fact that I'm on the train going home confirms that.
In any case, if I can wrap up the alumni site this weekend this would really be the weekend that I came of age. Contrary to popular opinion - God dey!
Thank God its sabbath tomorrow. Last sabbath was real cool. How many of you have been in a class where the substitute teacher is more fun than the real teacher? In any case we talked about Israel coming out of egypt. We talked about how the saved people where not saved because they were better than the others but because they accepted God's offer and likened it to how we are saved by accepting Jesus (that's Grace and Salvation 101). Of course our acceptance of God's offer is often demonstrated by some act of obedience - killing the lamp and putting its blood on their doorposts, loving that annoying boss, blah blah blah. We also talked about how God took them around the philistines and through the red sea so they wont turn back paradventure they saw war. Yet each Israelite, that day when they faced the red sea, didn't see how that was the best option. It makes you understand better why Paul says in everything we should give thanks for that is the will of God in Christ Jesus. The thing is it could be worse whatever the situation you are in now. The other thing is that God would always come through. Yes, Abraham and co. died expecting the promise but the thing is that the promise did come and much better one day they'll be resurrected and it would be alright.
I think instead of reciting positive affirmations each morning I should just remind myself that "God is in charge".
In other news, I'll try and post something scala/lift related soon otherwise this blog would just turn into a church real soon (not that I mind though). I'm also learning Qt right now. Its taking me back to my C++ beginnings but I'm enjoying it. Moreover, I'll finally be able to write apps for my personally use on my linux box and on my N900 (the later is my main motivation for learning qt). One of my Uncles once mentioned that I should try programming for the iphone. Let's just say he saw the light after (at my prompting) he successfully jailbroke his phone... Iphone ko sanitary pad ni... I dont know which one I'm more disagreeable towards now self - M$, Apple or Google. I guess that the fact that I dislike (or I'm scared of) each company for different reasons doesnt help in choosing.
What next? How about picking my guitar and continuing to work my way through third day's "Cry to Jesus"... at least for another 20 minutes tonite that's the deal (no long term plans for me).
In everything give thanks!
In any case, if I can wrap up the alumni site this weekend this would really be the weekend that I came of age. Contrary to popular opinion - God dey!
Thank God its sabbath tomorrow. Last sabbath was real cool. How many of you have been in a class where the substitute teacher is more fun than the real teacher? In any case we talked about Israel coming out of egypt. We talked about how the saved people where not saved because they were better than the others but because they accepted God's offer and likened it to how we are saved by accepting Jesus (that's Grace and Salvation 101). Of course our acceptance of God's offer is often demonstrated by some act of obedience - killing the lamp and putting its blood on their doorposts, loving that annoying boss, blah blah blah. We also talked about how God took them around the philistines and through the red sea so they wont turn back paradventure they saw war. Yet each Israelite, that day when they faced the red sea, didn't see how that was the best option. It makes you understand better why Paul says in everything we should give thanks for that is the will of God in Christ Jesus. The thing is it could be worse whatever the situation you are in now. The other thing is that God would always come through. Yes, Abraham and co. died expecting the promise but the thing is that the promise did come and much better one day they'll be resurrected and it would be alright.
I think instead of reciting positive affirmations each morning I should just remind myself that "God is in charge".
In other news, I'll try and post something scala/lift related soon otherwise this blog would just turn into a church real soon (not that I mind though). I'm also learning Qt right now. Its taking me back to my C++ beginnings but I'm enjoying it. Moreover, I'll finally be able to write apps for my personally use on my linux box and on my N900 (the later is my main motivation for learning qt). One of my Uncles once mentioned that I should try programming for the iphone. Let's just say he saw the light after (at my prompting) he successfully jailbroke his phone... Iphone ko sanitary pad ni... I dont know which one I'm more disagreeable towards now self - M$, Apple or Google. I guess that the fact that I dislike (or I'm scared of) each company for different reasons doesnt help in choosing.
What next? How about picking my guitar and continuing to work my way through third day's "Cry to Jesus"... at least for another 20 minutes tonite that's the deal (no long term plans for me).
In everything give thanks!
Friday 14 May 2010
Tire no be lazy...
It's hard to believe but this is the second post with this title that i've typed in the space of two days. The first, yesterday, was centered around why i wont be getting Jennifer Knapp's new album but i find today that it's not worth the effort or the read (not that anything here is what reading in the final analysis). One of the comments on the article sums up my feeling - we get divorced, we ordain females, we have gay church leaders - so why again do we call ourselves christian? To be clear I think female church leaders are inevitable in our day and age and i've got nothing against Jennifer been gay (she's basically exerciing her God given prerogative). It's just that (and it scares me to say this knowing full well that I'm so sinful) God told Adam not to eat of the fruit and despite his best intensions the fact remains that he ate the fruit. Dont care of you interpret this statement but that's all folks. Case closed.
In other news, the question - why I'm so far from where i know i should be - struck me yesterday! I had this guest over and since she just would not leave i started to day-dream (she came over to play games on my phone). Hellen Keller was so right when she wrote that people dont like to think - i know i dont like to think about where I'm headed: the conclusions are almost never good enough. So i got to thinking yesterday and that's that!
I dont feel like going to church tomorrow. I know its good to go... It's one place where I can get my batteries properly charged... But i dont want to go. I assuming the fact that i dont have any friends there isn't the issue. I'm assuming it's the thinking I did yesterday that's getting to me - plus I've not studied my sabbath school guide in like forever anyway. I almost always ending up going to church regardless of how i feel though...
I've been reading Deuteromy each morning (almost) on the train to work. You'd be amazed at our fasinating the book can get - today I read 3 chapters and it was way fun. Chapter 18 and verse 13 says "You shall be perfect with (before) Yahweh your God". There's this phrase that i think is attributed to Ellen White - every command is a promise. If God says to do something it means he can bring it to pass in you... better still it means He wants to be bring it to pass in you. For someone like me that's a beautiful text cos I fall so far short of the mark. But that's because I tend to try too much on my own.... I guess this colors "working out my salvation with fear and trembling" in a whole new light. It's really about God's grace and my willingness to surrender.
Nice looking chic... but mine's the next stop. Have a swell sabbath people.
In other news, the question - why I'm so far from where i know i should be - struck me yesterday! I had this guest over and since she just would not leave i started to day-dream (she came over to play games on my phone). Hellen Keller was so right when she wrote that people dont like to think - i know i dont like to think about where I'm headed: the conclusions are almost never good enough. So i got to thinking yesterday and that's that!
I dont feel like going to church tomorrow. I know its good to go... It's one place where I can get my batteries properly charged... But i dont want to go. I assuming the fact that i dont have any friends there isn't the issue. I'm assuming it's the thinking I did yesterday that's getting to me - plus I've not studied my sabbath school guide in like forever anyway. I almost always ending up going to church regardless of how i feel though...
I've been reading Deuteromy each morning (almost) on the train to work. You'd be amazed at our fasinating the book can get - today I read 3 chapters and it was way fun. Chapter 18 and verse 13 says "You shall be perfect with (before) Yahweh your God". There's this phrase that i think is attributed to Ellen White - every command is a promise. If God says to do something it means he can bring it to pass in you... better still it means He wants to be bring it to pass in you. For someone like me that's a beautiful text cos I fall so far short of the mark. But that's because I tend to try too much on my own.... I guess this colors "working out my salvation with fear and trembling" in a whole new light. It's really about God's grace and my willingness to surrender.
Nice looking chic... but mine's the next stop. Have a swell sabbath people.
Friday 7 May 2010
Almost cannot kill a bird
So... It's almost one year since i last visited this site - talkless of actually writing. What can i say - i still luv smooth jazz :) Seriously though, adult education no easy o (at least not on yankee). But thankfully it will be over this year. PhD will be alright - dem no born me born sufferhead.
It looks like my nasty habit of saying yes has got me in more fix this year than eveni could have imagined. With age comes the realization that you are human. All that iron man - Dr. Who brvado only happens in HD. Real life is more subtle, more wicked, more fun (depending on how you choose to see it) - for instance, I've started brushing up my resume becuase i know i could out of job in as little as one month
(now that makes me double grateful that exams are over this semester).
Some of you wish-asses will be having 'aha' moments now - like no wonder he has time to blog. Well, let me burst that bubble right now. The only reason you will ever see this here blog is because i got me an N900 and some nice dude wrote MaStory (an opensource app that allows you to blog from your phone). So this here is my thank you to him/her (giving how clean the app interface is i'm inclined to think that its either he is a she or Steve Jobs has something to tell us). Giving that he/she will most probably never see me thanx I am left to bank on the fact that we all connected somehow in giving this thanks here. Enough givings.
In other news, the train is stuck between buckhead and lindberg and I'm on it. I kinda feel sorry for those of you reading this right now as there's really no purpose to my rant right now. But that's okay - Yar' Adua didnt die in vain.
One more thing though - i read an article a few minutes ago at work about how ipad is killing netbooks. Seriously folks dont buy into the hype. Apart from buying an expensive electronic foto frame its hard for me to have anything seriously positive to say about that partticular piece of hardware - but then again thats not surprising seeing that i dumped my iphone 3.0 for a pre-released N900. My point is dont let the hype dictate for you - netbook sales may be reducing but, at the risk of been wrong (it's not like i've not been wrong before - after all HTC, motorola and co are busy helping create the next microsoft in google without realizing it), i dont think the Pad has a lo to do with that.
So there my friday rant... Maybe it would my weekly thing like goodplaya on friday (get it?). God has a plan... for tomorrow He thinks you should rest - He'll never force himself on you but you really ought to listen to him ;)
It looks like my nasty habit of saying yes has got me in more fix this year than eveni could have imagined. With age comes the realization that you are human. All that iron man - Dr. Who brvado only happens in HD. Real life is more subtle, more wicked, more fun (depending on how you choose to see it) - for instance, I've started brushing up my resume becuase i know i could out of job in as little as one month
(now that makes me double grateful that exams are over this semester).
Some of you wish-asses will be having 'aha' moments now - like no wonder he has time to blog. Well, let me burst that bubble right now. The only reason you will ever see this here blog is because i got me an N900 and some nice dude wrote MaStory (an opensource app that allows you to blog from your phone). So this here is my thank you to him/her (giving how clean the app interface is i'm inclined to think that its either he is a she or Steve Jobs has something to tell us). Giving that he/she will most probably never see me thanx I am left to bank on the fact that we all connected somehow in giving this thanks here. Enough givings.
In other news, the train is stuck between buckhead and lindberg and I'm on it. I kinda feel sorry for those of you reading this right now as there's really no purpose to my rant right now. But that's okay - Yar' Adua didnt die in vain.
One more thing though - i read an article a few minutes ago at work about how ipad is killing netbooks. Seriously folks dont buy into the hype. Apart from buying an expensive electronic foto frame its hard for me to have anything seriously positive to say about that partticular piece of hardware - but then again thats not surprising seeing that i dumped my iphone 3.0 for a pre-released N900. My point is dont let the hype dictate for you - netbook sales may be reducing but, at the risk of been wrong (it's not like i've not been wrong before - after all HTC, motorola and co are busy helping create the next microsoft in google without realizing it), i dont think the Pad has a lo to do with that.
So there my friday rant... Maybe it would my weekly thing like goodplaya on friday (get it?). God has a plan... for tomorrow He thinks you should rest - He'll never force himself on you but you really ought to listen to him ;)
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